Here is to 2022 ME!
Life with Complex PTSD has never been easy, and the pandemic made it worse. The first year of the pandemic was a major challenge, and all the plans I have made were postponed. I’m sure this happened to everyone. I had done nothing in 2020 besides working from home and taking online classes. Till 2021 came, I set a resolution for myself which was to focus on self-growth.
2021 was still challenging, but surprisingly I could say I’ve made it. By the end of the year, my mental health becomes better. I no longer have to take medication. I’ve learned to put myself first and finally understood what self-loved means. As a victim of emotional, and physical abuse, I would say this is a milestone for me. Because I’ve spent half of my life trying to please other people just so they can stay with me.
So here is to the person I will be in 2022.
The recovery journey has been difficult for you.
You will have to unlearn everything and recognize your inner child.
But that’s okay because you will lose the personalities which were caused by trauma responses, and understand what you want best.
You will be lost and confused when you’re healing.
Because you could finally become who you truly are before the traumas.
You will lose people along the way.
But that’s okay. People come and go. Not everyone can handle nor like the changes. Let them pick their choice. The right person will stay with you through this journey.
You will be strong as a brick, but will also cry your heart out like a baby.
It’s okay to not be okay. At the end of the day, we’re all human beings and we have feelings. You wouldn't have to pretend to be tough all the time. That’s tiring, and you are allowed to relax.
You will find yourself wanting support.
Don’t let the word “Burden” takes over you. Human beings have flaws, and it is okay to ask for help. You are allowed to be vulnerable. It does not make you weaker, but you are brave for accepting that you need help.
You will learn to prioritize your needs.
This doesn't make you selfish. You are allowed to say no to the things you don’t feel comfortable with.
There will be a lot of things you will be going through, and it will be challenging. But I just want you to remember that,
“It doesn’t make you a narcissist to love yourself.”
And here is to the people who may find this article related, I pray you will become the best version of yourself, living your life to the fullest, and being sprinkled with love. Despite anything we’ve been through, all of us deserved to be loved in the right way.
